Yea, I know. It's a bit early in the morning, eh? hehe. well, I just had to get some stuff off my mind. you know when things are all bundled up inside you, and u want somewhere to put them. i guess that was the reason i wanted to have an online journal. sure, ppl can read the stuff you say. but who cares? if it's really personal, you wouldnt wanna type it on here.
Shamvna's party was some purty kool stuff. I had an excellent time, even though I was extremely depressed by the time I left. I had a conversation with the ever thinking blick. turns out he's moving too, but to D.C. @ least i had 3 years notice; he had 2 weeks. So we realized we had a lot of stuff in common. And the more I thought about it, the more i got depressed on, yes i say this again, HOW LITTLE TIME IS LEFT. yea, i did the jumping around, dancing like a maniac. but i couldnt do it after my conversation w/ blick. nah....he's an awesome guy. I'm glad i had the talk. it's weird how he's taking a completely opposite path to the same spot that we're headed. he's become like a complete hermit, and i go out practically every day. i just couldnt stand going back in the party, and i could feel tears welling up in my eyes. i managed to get outside before the tears actually started trickling down. and yet again, dan seemed to sense something was up, and came out to talk. and as always, i'm blown away by his intelligence. dan blick, if u're reading this, i wish u the best of luck in college, and i hope you dont slack off too much.
as to every1 i gave notes to at the party, i apologize ahead of time for them not being too good. i also hope u guys dont exactly exchange them with each other, as they're a bit personal. it's not like i trashed-talked u in some1 else's letter, i just feel like each letter is only meant for the person i wrote it for.
and patrick, i couldnt help it, but i read your letter. after being in that mood, i felt like your letter would be perfect. it was one of those moments where it just seemed right. and no doubt, the tears poured. you are quite eloquent. it's you and me all the way man. from kindergarten. things might change, but our friendship will remain.
*sigh* i usually try not to be too much of a sentimental person. i dont like to cry in front of other ppl. no doubt i cry, though. i'll do my best to keep a happy front for u all, cuz weepy stephy is no fun. yea. man. i'm lucky to have such great friends as yall. o yea, side note, another thing that made me kinda down today was when we took a picture of "the crew". you know, the group we've been hanging out with together all summer. me on tran's lap, koller on dana's......hahaha. anywayz, yea. with me moved, i already feel left out of the loop. plus the fact i'm LEAVING...*sigh* it's been great though. i loved hanging out w/ u guys all summer. the randomest things set me off, eh?
BTW, Thanks eric for the shirt, and steven for the tie! u guys rock. and for every1 that signed my scrapbook today. sorry for the last minute business.
i'll try to end on a BRIGHT NOTE. i watched ann bust out her moves! WOOHOO GO BABY!!!!!! sexy sexy GIRL!!!!!!