So, turns out we're not all as hyper and energetic as we seem. We all try 2 hide it, and pretend we're ok. what's up w/ that? do we just wanna rpetend that we're always kool, always happy? but we're not. i'm quite contemplative sometimes. not as much as PATRICK, who knows more about me than i do, but i like to analyze things. i like to think back to events that happened during the day, or even in the past, and figure it out. i know most of the time they dont warrant it, but i do it anywayz. So yea, i'm usually incredibly energetic, but sometimes it's fake. b/c when i dont act like that, ppl start questioning and wondering what's wrong w/ me. so far here, i've been kinda both. kinda quiet, and then ppl ask me if i'm tired or not. i usually am, but tiredness doesnt really affect my energy level. i can get myself pumped up if i really want 2. and lately i've kinda been hermity. it's been a good thing 4 me, i mean, i dont study 24/7. but i do study a lot more than i did b4. i do kinda miss seeing every1 all the time, and i do feel like i miss out on some stuff. but then i think about it, and u know, my parents are spending a freaking lot of money to send me here, and it's not to socialize. i'm not gonna pussy out and drop physics; i wanna do good. work hard. i'm gonna do it. the rest of my classes too. it's not like i'm NEVER gonna see my friends. see, i always do this. i start behind. had i worked from the beginning, i could b ok. but now, i'm paying 4 it by completely hermitting, b/c i screwed up @ 1st. i didnt adjust fast enuf; so now i'm compensating. grrr. it's ok. after next week, i can be a pseudo-hermit. next week is mid semester exams, so the week after that i can take it alittle more easy. not too much, or the cycle will start all over again. i might b able to start taking meals w/ ppl again! yay! yea, it's sad. i usually eat by myself now. really tho, it's the only way 2 get work done. u'd b suprised by how much more u can accomplish when u're not socializing. plus, if u write down a set schedule and do your best to follow it, u can increase productivity. omg i sound like a handbook.
yea, so anywayz, my real thought of the moment is how here, we're all kinda similar. i'm reading lisa and dave's blogs, and noticing how we're all like funni and perverted and childish, but @ heart, we're a lot more than that. it's just that we're not close enuf 2 b telling each other about it yet. well, we kinda are. sorta. like....little by little we're building our relationships w/ each other. and that's what i think is totally kool. we're slowly starting 2 trust each other w/ our little problems, and figure out each other nuances. way kool.
anywayz, i seriously need to get back 2 my work. i didnt factor in "update blog" in my schedule, so now i'm behind. :) i hope every1 has a superb day!