for all u haters out there, this is 4 YOU!


tYssTea K Ho Use (6:09:53 PM): people here say swoll also
spi fi ste fi (6:09:57 PM): OMG
spi fi ste fi (6:09:58 PM): from where?
spi fi ste fi (6:10:01 PM): from where? CALI?
tYssTea K Ho Use (6:10:03 PM): cali?
tYssTea K Ho Use (6:10:05 PM): yeah
spi fi ste fi (6:10:27 PM): OM NO WAY!!!!!!
spi fi ste fi (6:10:28 PM): YEA!!!
tYssTea K Ho Use (6:10:43 PM): yeah
tYssTea K Ho Use (6:10:54 PM): and then this guy from baltimore was like
tYssTea K Ho Use (6:10:59 PM): wtf is swoll
tYssTea K Ho Use (6:11:05 PM): he says "cock diesel"
spi fi ste fi (6:11:06 PM): OMG THAT'S SOO KOOL
spi fi ste fi (6:11:09 PM): HAHAHA YEA DIESEL!!!
spi fi ste fi (6:12:07 PM): but the ppl from cali here dont know what swoll is
tYssTea K Ho Use (6:12:18 PM): really
tYssTea K Ho Use (6:12:21 PM): that is weird
tYssTea K Ho Use (6:12:27 PM): this guy was from palo alto so..
spi fi ste fi (6:12:29 PM): yea...i thought it was a houston thing
tYssTea K Ho Use (6:12:32 PM): maybe it is a norcal thing
spi fi ste fi (6:12:37 PM): YEA PALO ALTO WOOHOO
tYssTea K Ho Use (6:14:11 PM): my roommate from san antonio says it too

man...i dont think i'm ever gonna catch up on sleep. it's only partly my fault. really! how can i help it that i wake up after only 6 hours and sleep and i cant fall back asleep? then there's my crazy roommate munching on cheerios like friggin loud, and commenting about how "kool" and "awesome" it is every 6 seonds about the runners running by. "(the great race is today, and it goes by our window). not reall yher fault either. if i really had the ability to sleep, i would've been conked out whether or not she was talking.
This weekend really kinda made me miss home. Home is great. i mean TX home. Like, partying here is kool, u know? and it's fun, and it's more interesting than high school. but there's just something about partying w/ your party buddiers from home...made me miss all u guys. from our crazy dancing, to our clubbing, to our indian dancing. i dont know if i've mentioned this b4, but the diff. azns dont really miz as much. i'm so used to interacting w/ indian ppl, it's weird that i'm not doing as much as that here. so i miss our indian dancing too. bumbaro, or however u spell it. i dont think i'll be balling it indian style anytime soon. dont get me wrong, partying here is awesome too. it's a different atmosphere. and it's a lot of fun, cuz the ppl here are really kool. but just going out kinda made me miss home.
Another thing i dont really do now is have time 2 myself. u know how @ home, there'll just be times where i kinda just sit and chill by myself. i dont really do that. i dont really make time 4 myself anymore. that's prolly not very good. i dont know y. but going out a lot is quite tiring. i mean, it's not like i party all the time. but like during the school week too. i dunno...i've always been a homebody. i like 2 go out, but i like to have quiet time 2 myself too. i'm gonna start trying 2 do some of that. just, u know. take time off to myself, go to B&N, read a book or something.
i also know now how great it is 2 have a mom care 4 u when u're sick. it's really not the same being sick w/ out your mommy there 2 make u feel better. a mother shows concern like no other. i used 2 think it's all annoying and stuff, but u know, when u lose it, u kinda miss it. I LOVE U MOMMY!
yearbooks came back. i heard that instead of putting victoria ban as most shy, they accidentally put me. wtf? unless eric chen is lying to me. this is a possibility...but anywayz. another random bit: us houstoners use the term swol/swole/swoll(the spelling varies). here, ppl use the word diesel. weird, huh? they basically are used the same way, but diesel is more..flexible. it can act not only as an adjective, but as a verb. crazy east coast ppl huh? they make fun of me 4 using the word swole. yes, u know me. ghettoness hard core 2 the max.(stop laughing!) alright, i must go now. we have to go learn our dance 4 r-games now. so screwed 4 today! haha it's all good.

yupyup. friday! yay! again, this week passed by pretty fast. i dunno whether i'm sick or not. my throat is sore. i just took a dayquil, and it's feeling a lot better. plus i'm not coughing. i better go buy some more of that stuff. i think i'm gonna take this weekend alittle easier. i've been doing too much stuff lately. i'm gonna just chill on saturday. i need it. i'm guzzling water like crazy now. i go thru so many bottles a day. i also go peeing like crazy too. i
school this week was purty hard core. that's ok. i'm failing like 3 of my classes right now. like honestly failing. not that kinda failing in high school where i mean i'm getting a b. i'm really failing. but w/e. so u high schoolers think u got it bad. dont even start w/ me.
man, i'm starting to get a chubby stomach. BOO! not good. i'm not happy. although i walk a lot of stairs, and i think i'm starting to develop calf muscles. maybe it's just my imagination. but i thought i had pretty chickeny legs b4 i came.
i'm such a bum today. it's raining, so i didnt go work out or grocery shopping like i planned on. that's ok. i'll go tomorrow.
o man o man. we're so dead 4 r-games on sunday. we're not even CLOSE 2 being done w/ our dance. hehehe that's ok. party 2 nite right? YEA! hehe i'm such a horrible person.
let's all be thankful that we're ALIVE today cuz life is GOOD right? YUP!!!!!!!!!!! (random, i know)

quick question: do yall think i'm changing? cuz pat said that when he read my blogger, i sounded like i've changed already. "homework up the wazoo". didnt i used 2 say that b4? i dunno. so yea...tell me whether u think i've changed or not. i'm interested to kno what u think.

this weekend kicked some ASS man. u know i'm having fun when i lose my voice. dont worri, i'm not sick. yes, i sound like kermit(i luv u 2 jess). but it's all good. went 2 a house party. now i really wanna live in a house like that. it's so kool! then afterwards we had our sleepover. that was totally (to borrow from bhavna) BALLER! now, we have our massages, shivers, head, and bra lessons. wtf, u wonder? well, if u werent there, u missed out. dave is really good @ massages. we all agree. numero uno. anywayz, sleepover was great. besides the fact of the lack of sleep, and the soreness in the morning, it was kool. cramming 10 ppl in a room is gonna cause some soreness in the morning. then R-games kicked ass too. that didnt really help my voice situation. yea....i'm such a girl. i cant ball or anything. but hey, me and elaine are chubby bunny buddies! man.....i'm still tasting marshmallows in my mouth. o yea! and elaine is kickass man. she looks all innocent, but she's not. she won our team kickball. against albert. course, he was going ez on her. but still. she kicked his ass. water polo skills! anywayz, next week....dance part...we're gonna rock. 6 girls baby. we've got the chest high five, our "up-down" dance, our butt hits.....hahaha this is awesome.
2 exams this week. i think if i study, i should b ok. i'm finally starting to understand chem. i didnt like the fact we went from chapter 1 straight to chapter 15. now we're in chapter 3, so everything is good. but the test is gonna b on chap. 15 too. and physics test. man...i have to do good. my mom is like crazy. she calls me going crazy, thinking i'm gonna fail out of this school or something. i mean FREAK OUT! just cuz i complain i cant do the work doesnt mean i'm gonna die. yall know that. i always complain, but i'm usually pretty kool about it. o yea! got elaine saying "yall"! go us! and i thought that i would b changing my lingo up here....psh. TEXAS ALL THE WAY!
sorri, i'm changing subjects like a mofo. o man..i've been cussing too much lately...i need to work on that. it's so like.......blah. plus i'm eating so much sweets, and so late. ok. NO MORE OF THAT. right? haah yea right. but i really need to work on it. ok anywayz, i need 2 go 2 sleep now. actually, shower THEN sleep. but anywayz, i hope every1 else is having a WONDERFUL time. college rocks. so much better than high school. i miss all u ppl tho!

i decided to im steven today. i just wanted to see what was up w/ the whole hc situation. i had kinda forgotten about it. it's so weird! it's like...i had basically completely 4gotten about that life. it was only last year too! it sounds like they have everything set w/ the whole stag thing. i kinda wish we were able to do that back then.
oo! got a sweater @ gap today for 16.99. yea NO TAX baby!
o btw, yea. failed the calc exam. failed the physics quiz. prolly passed (low) the psych. greeat. love the grading.
so now all u quarter system ppl are in school! yea! GO SCHOOL! hope u guys have tons of fun.
o yea! happy mid-autumn festival or w/e! eat lots of mooncakes! (red bean are best).

yea.....i love being @ the bottom of the food chain. had a conversation w/ pheebs about it this morning. how like we cant do a single thing on our own here. every step of the way, i need help. 3.5 hours in the course center for 5 physics problems, none of which i could do myself. i am highly dependent on every1 here. it's really sad. @ least there's plenty of smart ppl 2 help me. like that awesome nice guy graham i met in the course center yesterday. he's in physics 2, and he was helping me and other ppl. how awesome is that? that's the great thing about it here. most ppl are really willing to help u, and they're really patient w/ u. i'm so completely slow and stupid, but ppl still help me. it's kool.
i have a psych and a calc test tomorrow, which count for a LOT of my final avg. calc is 50 percent. and psych is like 35%. then the physics quiz tomorrow.....i'm seriously failing physics and chem right now. i'm not even joking. there are some horrible TAAS in physics. but that's only a small portion of it. all my grades coming back are like 15/40. 30/40. etc. not to mention the NEW quiz...i thought that my hw grades could buffer my exams a bit. boy, was i wrong. anywayz, i have 2 go back 2 studying. laters~!

i'm in the process of reading w. hist, and i have a quick thought.

throughout time, there have been these stories written about love, falling madly in love, etc. etc. these span all types of cultures and centuries. but does true love really honestly exist? like helen of troy or w/e. huge war b/c of 1 woman. is love just some idealized bs that ppl use to capitalize off of? watching today's romantic comedies, and even old school movies like casablanca and roman holiday. all pertain to the idea of true love, and "meant to be". so where did this notion come from? does that kinda stuff happen in real life? do we each really have 1 person we are meant to be with? i always felt that we can be compatible w/ many different types of ppl. but @ the same time, a part of me always feels that there is 1 person out there...that's meant 4 me. but realistically, i doubt that is true. i dunno, i'm such a romantic. anywayz, how do YOU feel about it?

i am a friggin idiot here. that's all good. i love being @ the bottom of the class...what a great feeling. *sigh*. i dunno what's up w/ me lately, but i'm so careless. like on my hw and such, i'm like making the stupidest mistakes. and now we're starting on the NEW calculus. up 2 this point, it's been a review of the last few weeks of high school calculus. and now we're finding integrals @ infinity and such...
omg jeff fell out of my lofted bed, what yesterday? that was the most hilariousest thing EVER. he actually landed on his feet like a cat. he like did a flip.....SO FRIGGIN HILARIOUS!
having a sleepover @ elaine's apt on sat. that's the thing i'm looking to most this weekend. besides the fact that it's the weekend! 2 exams this friday. my calculus one counts as 50% of my final grade. GREAT HUH! damn.
my diet is starting to become more careless too. i'm eating more junk food. BAD STEPHANIE! i need to work on that.
btw, i'd just like to say altho i complain a lot about this stuff, i'm loving the college experience. it's totally awesome. if u're still contemplating about where 2 go 2 college, i would definitely tell u 2 considering going out of state. it's a complete change. weather, habits, friends. altho it might take u a while to find your niche of friends, it'll happen sooner or later. college is awesome!

ahh! it's 12 in the afternoon and i went to bed @ 4. woke up @ 10:30. what kinda crapola is that? 1st, i 4got to turn off my alarm clock from the morning b4
then my mom calls @ 10:30 in the morning to tell me that she bought the milk tea that i wanted. but she's not gonna mail it 2 me. and my fone was charging, so i had to GET OFF MY BED to pick up the fone. any1 who has seen my bed understands the pain of getting off of it. and plus, after last night's exercise, i am sore as a mofo right now. i can barely walk. my roommate and i decided to go downstairs to the underground and get some grub, cuz neither of us could fall back asleep. yea, i went down there in my sexy pjs consisting of a masho maro pj shirt and my free gap boxers. that's the way 2 go. and my hair looked like ass, so i put on a bandana. u know, gotta impress those HOT BOYS here. now i cant get back to sleep so i'm chilling online. i'm so WEIRD! ugh.sleep is good, but i cant sleep right now.
and omg i dunno what's going on but i just got my period. yea! and it was so unexpected. i mean, i kinda felt like it was coming, but i didnt think it really was going to. it's only been 22 days! wtf is that? i'm almost always on time. every 33 days, give a take a few. not give or take 11 days! this might b from a lack of sleep, and my very off sleeping hours. my naps are @ all times of the day...weirdness. i'd appreciate it if some1 could tell me the reason it's like this. argh.

ok. so i'm a loser. i'm @ a girl's apt, and she's not even here. cuz every1 went out 2 a party. and i decided not 2 go. this is probably the reason i dont really meet that many ppl. that's ok. i really dont feel like going out 2 day. i feel like staying and chilling like a bum. evne if that means having to be by myself. well, dave left me. THANX. i could've gone w/ him. i just didnt feel like going 2 schlag. schlag, btw, is my 2nd home. it's basically another dorm on campus that i practically live in. cuz my own dorm ppl are so weird. schlag's lounge is air conditioned and such, so i like it. plus the fact i'm starting to play pool...which is not a good thing. i'm no pool shark, but i kinda enjoy playing. no 1 cares that i suck, and every1's really helpful. but yea. i'd just like to say that cmu isnt that bad. like, these ppl that i'm "chillaxing" w/, they're all really down to earth, funni ppl. i feel like i've already known them 4 a really long time, when i fact, it's only been like what, a week? seriously...i met them last weekend. how weird is that? course, they've known each other longer.
ooo, today was a pretty athletic day. i went to go work out @ the gym for 2 hours. all conditioning. i'm gonna be sofaking sooore tomorrow, i kno it. then like 2 hours of ifs. it stands for international freestylers...something. heheh. basically, we learn dance moves. it was my 1st time today, and i'm so glad i went. i was a bit apprehensive about going b4, cuz as we all know my dance skills lack a bit, but i thought i would be behind. but everything was kool! the girl totally broke every down piece by piece. every1 was different levels, and i learned part of a really spiffy dance. sooo TIRING! like the guys were just learning like raving and dance moves, and the girls learned more choreographed stuff. i heard it's not always like that tho, and the girls learn the other stuff 2. w/e. it's a really kool idea. and those teacher ppl....they're such awesome dancers. ahh ok! i'm not in my room right now. i'll finish updating this later.

quick thought that i wanna get out. on my neighbor's door, there's a quote that says "the odds are good, but the goods are odd." everytime i walk by, i never really thought about it. till TODAY. and i have to say, that's the friggin smartest quote ever. yea. it's highly true here.

yea, i've been thinking about my preconceptions of college b4 i came. a lot of what i thought was true, but at the same time, a lot was different. for example, i thought every1 would be so friggin smart and crazy nerds. which they are. there's some crazy math ppl, cs ppl, etc. they are seriously so awesomely smart it's amazing. there's this 1 girl on my floor that on the day of her prom, she went to a MATH TOURNAMENT and had 10 minutes to get ready 4 her own prom. ok, i think that's crazy. and some ppl here, they seem to never be doing work. but turns out they've already FINISHED. craziness. another 1 of my thoughts would b that the goodlookingness factor here would be quite quite low. i wasnt exactly pleasantly suprised, but it turned out slightly better than expected. there's definitely better looking girls here than guys tho. hmm..maybe i should turn lesbian. hehehe jp! so for u guys out there, maybe u should apply! another 1 of my thoughts was that every1 would dress like crap to class. like me. hahaha but that's untrue. i'd say a good 10% of the ppl here dress up for class. i'm talking skirts, shirts that need ironing, heels, etc. i guess i was just used to ppl from other college ppl telling me that no1 dresses up. i guess it depends by school. cuz bryan says @ penn some ppl dress up. i feel quite underdressed here. i feel like a huge scrub. which i am. but come on, who am i trying 2 impress? on those days when i feel ugly, i might put on a nicer shirt or something. in the meantime, i just wear shiznity-clothes. comfort is key, right?
and u know how in houston there's all that thrift shop stuff going on? i dont see much of that here. none of that WOW I GOT THIS SHIRT FOR 25 CENTS pride. i kinda miss that. i never got to go to value village though. boo!
what i actually kinda miss is giving/recieving hugs. u guys know me. i'm quite the touchy, huggy person. there's no ann chin here for me to hug everyday, no "patty puff" for me to skip up and down the halls with. there are no halls, for that matter. there's no koller for me to hit and to tease, no more "YOU HO!" business going on. i think i miss that more than anything else, u know? cuz that's kinda part of my personality. a part of me that i'm keeping kinda...what's the word...dormant. i'm not gonna go around hugging random ppl i just met, right? i'm still hyper, still weird, but at the same time, i still dont feel completely at ease around these new ppl. dont get me wrong, i enjoy their company. but...it's hard 2 explain. and yes, pat and kunal. dont worri, i'm taking your advice. u guys are just watching out 4 me, and i'm actually taking your words to heart. i think i've been doing a good job so far.
oo! guess what? i played pool. ahh! noo, right? there's like pool tables everywhere. i'm still pretty bad. first time playing yesterday. i still remember when ann and i tried playing @ dana's house, and we couldnt finish the game cuz we both sucked. haha thomas and koller had to finish 4 us. but I won! BOOYA! hehe. i have a feeling i'm gonna start playing here more. i doubt i'll ever be up to the greatness of dana(impossible), but a girl can have a role model, right? ;) i think i'm babbling on again. alright, enuf of that.
btw, u guys all need to get webcams! LATERS!!!

AND it's back to monday again. School work up the wazoo. i have to start organizing my day, just to get everything fitted in. so different from high school in that respect. for every1 asking how i like it here, it's actually not that bad. minus the school work, this place is actually pretty kool. i still have yet to do exploring in pittsburgh, but that will come w/ time. i DO miss good food. ahh...tay do!!!! tokyo bowl!!! i'm eating a friggin lot of indian food here now. cuz it's really close 2 my dorm. and most of the other food sux. i just pick it up on my way back. we all know how good nan is. and after a million gazillion indian parties, i practically feel like i'm indian. what about the chinese food, u say? it's too far away for me to get it consistently.
this weekend was kool i guess. my first party here, u could say. it was either that, or sit and watch the disney channel. we figured saying we went to a party sounded better than saying we watched the disney channel. it was fun, but it's not really the same as b4. course, i danced like a maniac, as we all know. but like...i'm used to going to parties where i know most of the ppl. and i'm prolly not the youngest there. but hey, it's all good. adjusting, right?
alright, it's prolly time 4 me to go do some studying. call me up if u guys ever need to talk, oki? u know i'm always here 4 yall. luv ya!!!!

FINALLY!!! the weekend is here! i'm so excited. work here is crazy. like workload. and this is only the 2nd week of school. i dont even wanna THINk about how it's gonna b finals week or something. u know i like to go to sleep @ 11 during the school week. well, @ least 1st semester. but obviously i cant now. i might b able to on some nights. but i'm already really behind on my work. this weekend isnt gonna b tons of fun. it's gonna b tons or work.
ooo webcam is so much FUN! i've talked 2 tony, ann, pat, patrick, and daniel yuan using it. the weird thing is that most of them dont have webcams. u guys see me...i dont see u. boo. every1 needs to get a webcam! i've been saying this since summer. o yea i still need to get a tv tuner. when does the new season of gillmore girls start? i wanna watch it! i hope i'm not that addicted anymore. my homework might suffer b/c of it. boo. and this IS friends' last season. i havent been watching it 4 a while cuz i had kumon during that time, so i could never catch it. i might now tho.
alright, so my point is that any1 w/ webcams needs to link up w/ me so we can talk! i'm really excited to be keeping in touch w/ every1. yeayea!

labor day weekend was kool i guess. i ate so much. the weight i've lost i gained back. so much clam chowder and lobster. yum yum yum. and now i'm back here again. but on the bright side i DO have a monitor. which is quite exciting. hehehe. but still need one more cable till every1 in the room can log on. llalalalala. blah. the freakos here. it's all good. MA was kinda cold. very windy. i think the temp was around 58 degrees.
anywayz, so what's up w/ the csing? HUH? i guess it's a better alternative to other things. but if u do the other things AND cs, then it's a bad thing.cs. hypocrites. u SAY u wont play, but then u play all the time HUH? *sigh* it's ok. as long as u ppl do your homework also. i'm feeling kinda motherly again. yea. u guys NEED me. just call me mommy. hehehehehe. as long as work gets done. i just dont want u cs ppl to become the computer freakos like the ones here. when i hear that yall cs the image that pops into my head is of that nerdy person. badddd thoughts. yea. i'm gona go watch the fast and furious now. 1st time. i know! i've never seen it! suprising, huh? well, laters!